Uncatchable

Hi,how do you do today?
What were your fingers pointing at?
Can you answer me?
Why were you standing there?
Why were you smiling to me?
Why did you want me to sit in the front of the class?
Why did you ask me to clean the corner?
Why did you call my name when I'm leaving?
How did you get here?
How did you go through all that just to come to this place?
How?
Oh.......
It just a dream.....
I though you've came back for us.

时时刻刻

会不会
有一天
你不会再见到我，
而我只能
傻傻的期待着，
你会回首的那一天......

我们还会这样吗？

每当伸起那只脆弱的手，
时时都能发现；
每一个感动的瞬间，
刻意呈现出来。

我们相隔得再远，
都是在同一个天空下；
不要因为小小的距离，
会开始分叉了记忆，
忘掉了曾经快乐；
记得要珍惜拥有，
你能做到吗？

好不好？
好了吧？
活着就像是一个迷宫，
下一个方向，
去这里还是那里？

有这么一天的话，
个人的想法就会隐现，
喜好也因此被发掘；
欢天喜地的回忆，
你现在也有了。

的确，
人们难免会伤心，
会难过。

支配所有感情的人，
持之以恒的那个人，
你能不能成为他？

Sorry,

this is the last time,please forgive me for posting emo-ish post.

This is a mess
Now I m done
Forget me
I m dead
No one will ever notice that I died
This is stupid

Why am I writing?
No one will see this
My heart and my soul
they have told me

Now my mind is a mess
with so many shadows
it filled my empty-ed hatred
now I cant breath
suffocate

My heart is so pain
but what's with the pain
I cant cry for this pain
Ironic

My brain hurt
what am I thinking?
I cant get everything straight

hey you
yes it is you
the one who's reading this

do you hate me?

no?

but deep in the heart

you may hear it say yes

I'm tired
so tired that even die cant relief me
so I cant die now

r.i.p

a light is on
everyone is gathering around
they wont see me
because I am staying where I am
Place I suppose to be
Dark

I want to close my heavy eyes
but I cant
What's the point?

This is awful
I hear a voice
it is screaming for help

"hel..................................................................................................................

To you(s):

1.009
我们认识很久了，
但相处的时间却稀少得很明显，
所以我们不了解彼此。

但我有句话一定要跟你说：
“谢谢你....”

没有你的话，

我不可能可以站在这个高峰，

也不可能会认识这么多好朋友，

所以谢谢你。

是你把我带到文化的世界，

虽然我不曾喜欢这个地方，

但因为你，

我打算继续留下来，

知道你已经到了你世界的最高点，

我会默默地在你身后为你加油，

但我知道那个声音你永远都听不到，

所以我不再出声，静静的看着你努力爬上最高点。

每次当你的眼神与我的双眼交锋时，

我知道，

我是一个很重的累赘，

拖着你，

是让你成功的绊脚石，

我已经当了很多年的绊脚石，

你却很少提醒我，

不知道是因为你已习惯还是你已太厌倦，

但我一直到答案了，

因为你已经向人求助，

求他们把我这个绊脚石给丢弃，

我不责怪你，

因为这是你可以登上最高点的办法，

我可以保持沉默，

因为我要你快乐，

所以我不想再当你的绊脚石。

从此以后，

我会更加上进，

爬上自己的最高点，

不再成为一个累赘，

因为我要你再次捡回这一个绊脚石，

让你知道，

我是你的好用具，

我将伸出手抓着你，

把你拉上你的最高点，

所以，

谢谢你。

2.075

我一直不知道要如何接近你，

我知道你是一个好人，

却无法接近你。

不是别人的关系，

而是我的问题，

你没有错。

我以为时间还多的是，

你却让它瞬间急冻，

因为你就要走了。

我们没有机会正式相处，

也没机会对你聊天，

只能留下遗憾。

如果真的有一天，

你看到这个，

请记得：

我叫做李新哲，

生日1月11日，

喜欢画画。

如果你真的要走，

请不要再回头，

你会伤心的。

如果你真的要走，

请听我说一句：

再见了。

我们真的能“再见”吗？

突破

Why we humans must face so many problems in our lifes?

Why we humans must somehow never surrender to destiny?

Why we humans must overcome such things to achieve happiness?

.......

Because we humans must face problems in order to grow.

Because we humans must give our best so we might change destiny.

Because we humans must achieve happiness no matter what the cost.

.......

This is not stubbornness.

This is not stupidity.

This is not greed.

......

This is dilligent.

This is belief.

This is human.

......

人不突破，何以为人乎？

Switch?

嘿~
换换心情吧~
这次也不写什么词了~
这次也不写什么作了~

我只想好好的看看自己~
用你的眼睛~
用你的眼睛来看自己~
啊~
呀~

哈~

躺在青草地~
看蓝蓝的天空~
当没人会说天黑的黎明~

尖声呐喊~
突破吧~
抓着它~
别让它跑了~

你开心吗~
我开心~

你开心吗~
你开心~
答案~
哟~

哟~

哟~

听见琴声~
听见心声~
听见笑声~

想听你的声~

:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)):):):):):):)):):):):):):):):):):)>:):):):):):):)

打伞的女孩

哟咿哟咿哟哦~
哟咿哟咿哟哦哦~
那位打伞的女孩~

今天在街上
看着一个人
打着一把伞~

跟在她后面
是一个男生
被阳光晒干~

哦~
打伞的女孩~
哦~
你是否也明白~

有一个人
他为了你什么都肯
哪一个人
只靠你自己去认

啥宁静~
啥感情~
~
哟咿哟咿哟哦~
哟咿哟咿哟哦哦~

The Negatives:

I really had no idea,
why I feel so "negative" lately,
sad.....

In these "negative" days....
I saw too many negative things,
my brain is out of my control,
I cant hold my emotions for any longer,
I don't know why.....

I try to escape from those negative thoughts,
but when I wake up in my dreams,
I had nightmares which it is worse,
because I cant even control my very own dreams.....

Whenever you happy,others are not...
Wherever you go,you will achieve no happiness...
Whatever you do,it just wont cheer you up...
Whatever you saw,nothing you desired will be seek...
Whenver you try to repel,troubles attracted...

Why am I moody?
Someone answer me.....

Elec Heart:

Sometimes we feel please when we are alone,
sometimes we don't....

We need loneliness,
so we will learn to appreciate the things that care about us.

We don't want to be alone,
too much care would just turn ashes.

Our heart is like filled with electricity,
it store energy time by time to the fullest,
it goes out rampage if the energies were overwhelm.

Our heart is like filled with electricity,
we use it time by time to the emptiness,
it dies without notice if the energies were outpowered.

Loneliness plays an important part of our lives,and we need it to maintain balance in our every single thought.

To make it easy:
If you feel angry that someone cares for you,it's because you think they care too much;
If you feel like crying cuz nobody cares for you,it's because you think they only exist to care for others....

Yeah,by the way.....
My loneliness went outbalanced lately.....
[sad]

The she..The smile..The heartbroken wish...

He never knew he would met this goddess,
He can't believe she is looking right to his blurring eyes,
His brain stunted,
He can't made any wise response,
He wondered why his heart pounded in such funny rhythm,
The shy guy never felt this way,
He tried to flee his eye contact with her,
But failed,
And ended up looking at each other..

He gave up the shy way,
He opened his mouth and try to greet her,
But what awaited was just some empty air,
He shocked,
But in split second,
She smiled,
He blushed..

He never seen a girl smiled such lovely to him,
To him,
That was the first time,
The first time he fell for her,
They had known each other for such a long time,
But to him,
That day,
Was the first time..

He never knew the girl that he outcasted for so long,
Had came such gorgeous lady,
The she,
Was never existed in his very own memories,
His mind was indeed been played..

She left,
And he kept recalling her face,
To him it was uneraseable,
Every sight he caught on her,
Had been locked deeply in his soul,
How could he ever forget the she he met,
He sworn he never saw a girl that cared for him so much..

Everyday and everynight,
The only cork that stucked in his brainhole was that smile she gave,
He knew it did not worth much,
But he kept on thinking of it..

He made it up,
He had the courage now,
He should go and know her more,
He should make her happy like she has never been,
He should,
Confess to her..

His mind was filled with the lovely thought of him and her,
He even imagined that if they were together..

He was never this out-minded,
She has became a daily need for him,
But the she,
She never knew all this,
She may smiled to him,
But she may do this to others,
She never knew an action like would cause such things,
To her,
She just wanted to cheer him up,
But only a plain way,
No second thought..

In the end,
He knew it,
The smile she gave,
Was priceless,
Anyone could get a smile from her,
No,not just him,
It was not a special smile,
The happiness he got from her turned to be illusion,
And vanished..

The she,
Was a goddess whom he will never be together with,
Because the personalities are way too different,
She used her smile to cheer people around her up,
But he thought the smile she gave was so special,
That anyone shall never have..

He was too greedy to love...
Pities....

It's been awhile...

[Sometimes I'm thinking that not even a friend of mine know that I have a blog =_=]

It's about 4 months since the last time I write a post.

Many things have happen through this long period.

But to make it short....

I made a bunch of new friends (have to use bunch cuz there really is a bunch==)

I watched a lot of anime and cartoons (comics too)

I started my studying plan (it was planned long time ago but I din tell anyone cuz there's useless to know)

I start to hate someone (that person doesn't visit my blog before so please dont think it is you)

I've been hated by someone (though I dont really sure if that person hates me)

I met an EMO (in my class)

I saw a lot people quarrelled (and it was quite fun to watch)

I grew taller (crap)

I stop making Flash becoz of PMR (hate you PMR)

I was sad that "Gintama" anime has stopped (but the truth is it will continue eventually^o^)

I made a goal (to gain World Knowledge which means all knowledge *is it even possible?*)

I was quite satisfied with my BM OTI 1 test marks (it's a "B")

I watched NigaHiga (it's one of the famous channel in Youtube)

I am hungry right now (need.....to......eat.....food....*fainted*)

In the nutshell:

There's nothing really big happenned (as much as I can recall ==)

And that's it,

K bye

Long time no see ^_^

It's been months since I make the last post.

A lot of things happenned.

I changed my specs.

I celebrated my birthday (11/1).

I made a lot of new frens.

I became the commander of the Harimau Kawat Team.

I've been nicknamed "Gorilla".

I started tuitioning with Teo (BM).

I drew a lot of doodles.

I became a fan of Gintama.

I downloaded a bunch of games (illegally of cuz).

I studied for PMR.

I quarrelled with a fren that I thought I will never be quarrel with.

I stopped learning guitar temporarily since I don't have one with me.

I started to listen to korean song.

And there still a lot of things happenned.

But they are hard to describe in words.

The post ends here.

WRATH of a teenager

{Man,the teenager is going to be mad!!!!}

Guess what?!Before the last exam,I have to read read read read,but everyone should know my type lah,read a bit then go play.

That is not the problem!!The thing is after exam,when i play play play play,I start to think of reading!!!!What is going wrong with me?!?!?!?!

My mind from that time is like saying:"Yo,Kevin,stop playing already,it will damage your eyes,how bout reading a book?It is nice..."

[The teenager hate his mind!]

I rather do housework instead of reading,look it is going holidays already,why am I thinking of that?

[Wait,the teenager DO housework?!]

Tomorrow I going to paint my classroom,hope nothing goes wrong......(praying to god position)

And yeah I still dint have any call from my friends about having an outing yet I shout bout this for so many times =_=.....

{The teenager is satisfied with the WRATH}

ENVY of a lonely person

{When am i going for an outing?!Shit i felt boring already even before the holidays!}

Nothing really special today,except i go to visit my cousin's house(mansion o_0) instead of attend tuition.

[I want to go kill times with my friends!!!!!Why everyone is gathering when i'm the only one who is being lonely?!]

Lately,my blog is very silent,like a ghostown.Like I am the only who keep checking my blog to search for surviviors=_=.....

[Jealous of ones who are always popular by others]

Well,in case of curiousity,I can share the way I spent my time:

1.Watch TV drama (like channel 324 and 333 on ASTRO)
2.Read manga like"Fullmetal Alchemist" (introducing the Elric brothers)
3.Update blog (like what I am doing right now...)
4.Play Flash games in Newgrounds.com (recommend the Blockhead series)
5.Making Flash games and movies during holidays with friends (of cuz,there are all begginners)
6.Surfing on net (just don't lost your surfboard)
7.Learn guitar (I'm a noob)
8.Draw crap comics for no reasons (-_-)
9.Exercise (muscles are nice lol)
10.Research Maths cheating formula (it is useful)
11.Clean my room (damn it is a disaster)
12.Take lame quiz on Facebook and don't usually publish them (since they are bad results...)
13.Wait to be call out (someone please do that please I beg you)

{The lonely person is satisfied with the ENVY}

PRIDE of a puny human

{Ahhh....proud to be a puny human...}

YAY!Finally the exam is over!(still it is a bit late lol)

Crazy to "fullmetal alchemist" lately---and the opening song--"golden time lover"

Oh Yah and also "one piece" plus "bleach"!

[Sometimes a puny human has the right to love reading manga anyway]

Going to learn playing guitar!

And going to buy a personal guitar during this damn long holidays...

[This puny human just has to keep borrowing guitar from his friend]

Yo buddy!Lets call me out this holiday!I cannot wait for an outing!

And make sure it doesn't clash with my schedule ^_^

[Puny human is busy person you know...]

And finally:
lolololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololol!

[Me puny human has not laughing big for a long time]

{The puny human is satisfy with the PRIDE}

Lets Fight![for exam,dignity,and of cuz..tradision!!!]

[Haha,long time din't update my blog.
I received some comments from my frens,
they told me post something eng-lish and there it is.]

-Haiyo!Exam is crawling to us,RUN FOR YOUR LIVE!!!But actually you can't...=_="

-Shit!I still haven't fully prepare for this year end exam yet!Plus I noob in memorising those stupid nota thingy!

-KO 3anguo is kinda cool and quite funny![I got watch!]

-Stop talking bad about me![especially my dumb frens (admit you dumb if you want)]

-Downloading Dungeon Fighter Online rite now [I heard it is a multiplayer fighting game^_^]

-The post publishing time is damn spoiled!It can even sometimes change from PM to AM!

没有屋顶

我的生活就好像是没有屋顶的家，
暴露在所有人面前，
而且随时会有一些毫不相干的陌生人过来问我为什么我家这么肮脏？
废话，因为我没屋顶，所以你才可以随便进来啊！

如果我试着去用婉转的讲法去告诉他的上一句话，
他一定是摆出一个听不懂的欠打样，
好像是要我直接用粗话跟他解释一番才甘心。（而且每次都是这样）

有一次我捡到一个屋顶，
好不容易才可以一个人静一下，
怎样懂tiba-tiba又闪出一个爱吹屋顶的怪人，
我用脸上的表情来暗示他别过来乱乱吹，
但是他还是硬硬要掀开我的屋顶，
要看我在里面干什么。

拜托，
难道你是瞎的吗？
我做了这么多的暗示，
你竟然一个都不懂，
你不只爱侵犯我的隐私权，
还是一个超级木头人，
你不能醒目一点吗？

请看过这个post的人见到我的时候别提起这件事，
为什么？
你应该自己清楚。
（我非常肯定这个超级木头人一定会傻傻来问我为什么不要提起......因为他看不懂我在讲他）

Hurt so bad

我心痛了，
不是因为患得心脏病，
而是被自己所伤，
自卑的力量的确很强。

我心痛了，
就在这一天，
09/09/09，
长长久久的心痛了。

Haiz........
我几时才能找到可以让我心情完全放松的Paradise?

我的Paradise

I want a paradise,
不只是个可以让我躲藏的地方，
也是个可以让我自由翱翔的天堂。

I want to see paradise,
就算全世界的人以我为敌，
Paradise还是我的最终目的。

Take me to paradise,
让我享受被遗忘的精神，
在同时也能找到真正关心自己的人。

Where is my paradise?
在我的梦想还没被熄灭，
逃离这一个逻辑颠翻的疯狂世界。

Oh Paradise,一个没压力的地方..........